Me?

Mums often lament that after having children they don't feel 'like themselves' anymore. They lose their identity and become just 'mum'. I can fully sympathise with this feeling but I have to say that since becoming a mum I feel like I know more about myself and I'm making more effort to 'be true to myself' (deep, isn't it?!)

I'll try to explain. I have always been a bit intimidated by taking to people I don't know. I have often been labelled 'shy' in the past, especially by my own family and family friends. I think people often label you as a child and expect you to stay the same for eternity! Since having children I suddenly had lots of people I didn't know who I could easily chat to and not feel self conscious. Having children gives you an instant common ground. I think in general this has helped me to be more confident and 'myself' in other circumstances too. 

I think as a mum you often have to work hard to develop your own interests and the pressure on your own spare time can help you to realise what is important. I don't feel guilty about time to myself, thinking about non-mummy things; God has given me lots of different passions and desires which should not contradict being a wife and mum. I will prioritise reading, making cards, writing, spending quality time with people (ok, as well as watching trashy tv and going on the internet!). But I think I am a lot more grateful for times of rest and use that time better. 

I have attached a photo of a painting my husband bought me for my birthday to this post. It is a Waterhouse painting of Penelope waiting for her husband Odysseus to return home after 20 years with no news, whilst the suitors try to persuade her to marry them. She has tricked them by saying she will choose one of them when she finishes weaving a shroud. However every night she unpicks her work so she will never finish. I really love this painting and it reflects my interest in Classics and romance. I'm not sure if I would have spent money on a painting like this 5 years ago. I know it won't be to everyone's taste but that's ok. I like having reminders around me of my interests and what makes me, me. The hubby likes it because it's of a wife remaining faithful to her husband so that works out well!

If you're a mum, maybe think about what is important to you and the dreams and desires God has placed in your heart. What makes you, you?