Baby number two!

Our big news which we have announced in the last week is that we are expecting our second child - eeeek! I really wanted to blog about it earlier, as it has affected my day-to-day life so much already but it wouldn't have been fair on J to leak the secret before our 12 week scan. I'm feeling ok at the moment but get horribly tired in the evenings - I can barely force myself up the stairs at gone 10pm! I don't remember the tiredness being this bad with Chloe but then maybe it's because I didn't have a toddler demanding all my time and attention then.

Emotions-wise, it definitely feels different being pregnant this time round. When we got the positive test we were just as excited (if not more because it had taken a little longer to conceive). As soon as the news had settled in, life just continued as normal! I didn't feel much different to start with and J and I are both so busy with our jobs and looking after Chloe that we didn't have much time to sit around and daydream about the new baby. I also feel like I know what I'm in for with the pregnancy and I'm not looking forward to it! I didn't cope well with the pregnancy last time and have to admit I don't really enjoy it. I feel convicted that this is an amazing gift from God and something which many couples long for, so I should feel very blessed and really enjoy it; it can be so difficult when you just feel sick and tired and heavy!

Having said all of that, when I do get a chance to stop and think about the new baby I do feel a rush of love which maybe wasn't as strong when I was pregnant with Chloe. I know now how important and individual and precious the baby will be, because of my feelings about Chloe. This makes me very excited and I can't wait to see how they are similar/different to their big sister. I am also really looking forward to introducing the new baby to Chloe and watching their relationship develop. Although I'm sure there will be jealousy issues, Chloe is so sociable and always trying to find children to play with so I really think she will grow to value having a little brother or sister. I love watching siblings interact and I can't wait to see our family growing together. I can't really believe it yet!!!