Proverbs 18:10
Today was my first afternoon back at work. It was an inset day and the same tomorrow, so no proper teaching until Wednesday. I really enjoyed going into work today, especially as there was no teaching so it was mainly about catching up with people and preparing for the coming term. I really enjoy the start of the school year, where there are so many great expectations (and nothing has yet gone wrong!).
However I am feeling a little wobbly about it all. I feel like I love my work but I also love being at home with my daughters and it is hard to do both. I still feel like 2 days a week suits us well and the long holidays help too. But I can't give my all to work because of the girls. I see some of my friends at work progressing up the career ladder and do feel a little jealous. And then I think of my girls getting upset without me around and my heart feels all sad I'm not with them.
In this circumstance I know I have I hold onto God's truth. I believe he gave me this job and has given me wonderful parents and parents-in-law who help me with childcare. I know they are great with the girls and God is watching over them too. I know God is blessing my career at my school and it isn't a sin to be proud of what I have achieved at work or to want to progress in my career. God has many opportunities for me there!
The verse at the top of the page keeps coming back to me at the moment. When I feel weak and wobbly at the thought of the next couple of days, I remember that God is a tower and I can hide myself in him. When the world/devil comes to attack me, I know it's not small, unstable me being buffeted; it's a huge and mighty tower which can withstand anything.
Thank you Lord for being my stronghold and being strong where I am weak. I could not do anything in life without you. Thank you for caring about all the trivial details in my life and walking with me in whatever I am doing.
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