Feeling unwell

Today I don't feel too good. It's nothing terrible but that general coldy, scratchy throat, pressure in head, itchy eyes, feeling a bit shivery kind of ill. I have been feeling it coming on the last few days but had work and didn't feel ill enough to not go in. But today is Saturday so I've decided it would be wise to have a morning of resting and missing the things I had planned to have a sleep and hopefully be back to myself this afternoon. It's not too much to ask is it?

However with children this is seriously difficult. Chloe didn't like the fact I wasn't communicating enough with her or playing the games we normally play so was doing all she could to annoy me. This ended up with me in tears which then made her cry. Then J removed the children downstairs but they kept escaping! Chloe wanted to eat breakfast in bed with me and Livia came in saying 'I love you mummy' and climbing on top of my head. 

Then there are all the little dramas downstairs that are hard not to get involved in. Like Chloe wanting her pens for drawing, not her pencils which J found for her; or Livia playing with the light switches over and over. Then there's the awareness of all the jobs that J is being left to do, like breakfast, getting the girls dressed, doing their hair and teeth, getting the bag ready etc. It's hard not to feel very guilty when you're just lying in bed.

I will get my rest. Just when they've all gone out!