Sensitive girl

I am really having to rely on God in my plans to go back to work at the moment. I believe that God gave me my teaching job; it was perfect, fitted in well with family life and I got an interview in a completely unexpected way! It has worked so well for us up until now. I decided to go back in September, partly for convenience for me starting at the beginning of the school year, but also to bless my employer and help out my head of department who would have really struggled to find cover for half a term or a full term.

I think my plans would have been fine but children are always full of surprises! Livia is proving difficult to wean onto a bottle; mummy is much nicer apparently! But she also had a reaction to formula last week which means we need to keep her on breast milk only until we've seen a paediatrician. I am going to persevere in giving her bottles but will need to express to practise with her which is a lot of work!

Livia also seems to be a lot more sensitive than Chloe ever was in situations isn't familiar with. If she is with a lot people she doesn't recognise and I'm not there or if I put her down somewhere she doesn't like (eg those fold down changing tables in disabled loos!) she can sometimes 'freak out'! She will scream for dear life and it's a horrible scared cry which is totally different to a hungry or tired cry. It is very difficult to calm her down and is upsetting for everyone!

I am trying very hard not to be anxious about leaving her in September. It will only be two days a week, she will be with her nanny and sister and every other week J will have the girls one day. I have to keep reminding myself of the truths in this situation and not give in to the lies the devil plants in my head (eg - you are abandoning her). I know that if I am meant to stay in my job then God will be with my girls too. He knows exactly what they need, better than I do. 

Please God give me wisdom in the next few months during weaning and please prepare all of us for the changes in Septemeber. We trust you Heavenly Father.