But being sick isn't the same anymore! J was working yesterday so I had to get up and look after the kiddies, which consisted of getting them dressed and fed then turning on CBeebies so I could lie on the sofa! It didn't last long. Thankfully my mum recognised a call for help in a text I sent her and we were able to go round my parents' so I could rest a bit more. But this still involved getting everything ready and the children in the car etc.
Today I feel awful because J is preaching at church and had the added stress of a poorly wife this morning.I have stayed at home with Livia (breastfeeding babies = no rest!) and Chloe has gone to church with J. It's so difficult as a mum to switch off and try not to feel guilty. I really wanted to support my husband today (especially as it's our wedding anniversary) and one way would have been to have taken complete care of the children so he could gear up for speaking the word of God.
However I know my limits and I know that God has grace for me, just as my family does! I know that guilt is often so false and tricks us into thinking things that aren't true; ie - 'my children need me at my best all of the time' or 'people will resent being asked for help whilst I get better'. I am thanking God today for my amazingly strong, compassionate, brave and godly husband and for the 6 year we have been married. I am also thankful that God knows my needs as well as J's and my children's.
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