I was thinking about how it is funny that we have a set of vows that we promise when we get married - like 'in sickness and in health' - but when we have children, we just plunge into it without any of these promises. The commitment to our children will never be quite the same as the special, godly covenant between a husband and wife, but for the time that they are our responsibility, it can feel like a much greater tie. When Chloe is ill, life suddenly becomes a lot more complicated! She currently has a virus which includes a high temperature, sickness, refusing to eat, crying that she 'hurts' and needing lots of cuddles. Plans have to cancelled, emergency dr appointments made (we've been twice in last 2 days!) and early nights planned so that we can cope with the inevitable wake-ups during the night.
As well as this, as a mum I just don't feel right when Chloe is ill. J gave me the opportunity to go out last night as originally planned but I couldn't do it! I am normally fine at having time away from my daughter but when she is ill it's a different story. I need to be there for her if she needs me. I feel so protective and angry that she has to go through such horrible pain and distress. It's a cliche but I do wish I could go through it for her! Is this what Jesus felt about us when he died on the cross in our place? Obviously to a much greater extent! Thank you Lord, for loving me so much.
I'm praying Chloe gets better very soon x
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